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heartbroken
Aug. 3rd, 2010 01:56 pmI need to write. I leave in a different city than my entire family. We are all very close. My mom has 10 siblings and they each have an average of 3 kids each (2 have 4 and 2 have 2) and now my younger cousin who's had. A drug problem for a long time is in a coma and everyone's over there and I'm working. Or at least trying to because I'm crying every 20 mins or so.
My older brother feels guilty because he convinced my aunt to pay for rehab and it was in there that something happened and now he's almost brain dead, I don't know. I told him it's not his fault. My cousin really needed help. I don't know whose fault it is but my boss just told me that sometimes in rehab the nurses are the ones that sell you drugs. So, I'm sad, heartbroken. I hope he pulls through. I'm praying. Does it work when you really don't believe in praying?
My older brother feels guilty because he convinced my aunt to pay for rehab and it was in there that something happened and now he's almost brain dead, I don't know. I told him it's not his fault. My cousin really needed help. I don't know whose fault it is but my boss just told me that sometimes in rehab the nurses are the ones that sell you drugs. So, I'm sad, heartbroken. I hope he pulls through. I'm praying. Does it work when you really don't believe in praying?
